Dead on The Inside

I debated on deleting the last post. I debated on not writing another. Growing up in group homes and foster homes there was always a common trend. The people who cried loudly for attention. Now I am going to sound like a huge bitch here, but I am going to be honest. Those attention seekers ruined most of my time in foster care. They proclaimed their want to commit suicide even though all they would do is bitch and moan when people weren’t giving them the overwhelming attention that they demanded. They talked about their woes to anyone within ear shot. I imagine these attention seekers are the ones who grew up to complain about their drama every day on facebook.

So the idea of me writing my problems on a daily basis for a bunch of strangers feels a bit like those attention seekers who took up the staff at my group homes so quieter kids like myself never got attention.

Sadly, I’ve gotten to the point where I feel dead inside. Like nothing matters. Like every feeling and emotion, all of my wants and desires, they are just gone. I don’t know how to get any of it back. I don’t know how not to feel empty. I want my motivation back. I want my will to carry on back. I want my life back. So I guess this is my venting space. No one will probably read it anyway, and it’s better than bitching and moaning on facebook every day.

Let’s Get Real ~ Being a Depressed Mom

I write online a lot. Lately I have been wrapped up in my reviews. I’ve been testing products and posting my opinions online. Helping sellers find other people to test their product has become my life. I take care of my children and my husband. Other than that, I work with my sellers. To the many people I deal with online on a daily basis, they think I am fine. Well I am not.

So here is the blunt ugly truth. I have given up. I am not wanting to die, but I am no longer really wanting to live. My desire to do anything is gone. My will to push through anything is gone. My will to shower daily is gone. I force myself to get dressed daily for the benefit of my children only. My therapist, that I stopped having the will to drive to 3 months ago says that is a good thing. My therapist doesn’t know me too well. I only broke down and went to her 3 times before I flaked out. I get dressed because it is the logical thing to do. Not because of some deep emotional thought, but because with children it is logical to not let them see how hard their mother is having it.

So here I sit. Every day, same cycle. I do what I have to do to get by. I do what I can to survive the day. I hate myself. I can’t look at myself in the mirror. I am withdrawn from the world. I have no friends. Literally. For some reason I say that and people are like ‘oh me too’, and most of the time they are full of shit. I literally do not have a single person outside of my home that I talk to more than once a year, other than my in laws who I talk to once a month when they see their grandchild. NO FRIENDS! My husband is my only friend. I don’t text anyone, I don’t call anyone, I don’t visit anyone, and I don’t have anyone over, ever!

I’m isolated and the only people I love live in the same home as I do. So in case you don’t know, in case you are the likely person who has not followed me over from another site I was a foster kid. I have no family except extended who I only see every few years. I have no one. My childhood was shit. Not little shit, big shit. I’m a survivor of over 10 years of incest rape, emotional abuse, and physical abuse. So yeah, my life has been fucked up. Now I am a 33 year old with serious depression.

I’ve decided to start writing about it more and more. I’m going to be really real here. I’m not writing any of this with any hopes of helping anyone. At this point I got to help myself. I need to do this for me and I couldn’t care less if it helps anyone reading it. My mind is fucked up and my brain is in overload. I am tired of feeling so messed up. I’d like to not feel like a fat slop at 130 pounds. So I am going to do my best to vent.

5 Natural Home Remedies for Athlete’s Foot

What is Athlete’s Foot?

Athlete’s foot is a type of rash located on the foot or both feet. Athlete’s foot is caused by a fungus that grows on or in the top layer of skin. This fungi typically grows best in warm and damp locations such as between the toes.

Athlete’s foot is contagious. You can get it from sharing shoes, showering in public showers without shoes, or walking barefoot in public places that may harbor athlete’s foot.

There are three different types of Athletes foot. Between the three almost every part of your foot can be infected, and in severe cases the toe nails can become infected. This can lead to cracking, pealing, discoloration, or even the nail coming off. However the most common part of the foot to become infected with this fungus is between the toes.

Symptoms of Athlete’s Foot

With all the symptoms of athlete’s foot you would think everyone who had it would know. Unfortunately many suffer from this condition and have no idea. Some even think the symptoms are normal parts of age, working on their feet, or just from walking around bare foot. While some things can cause it the symptoms should never be taken as normal. I want bore you with the details of what Athlete’s foot is since if you are here you probably already know what it is. However here are the symptoms if you are unsure.

Painful cracks between and on the bottom of the toes. Peeling blisters and skin. Toenails become yellow. Finally a warm or itchy feeling may be present.

Natural Home Remedies For Athlete’s Foot

  1. Apple Cider vinegar has been one of the most used natural remedies for athlete’s foot (and really almost all other illnesses). The easiest method is to make a warm foot bath and add a cup of apple cider vinegar. Soak for 15-20 minutes. When you finish dry feet very well. Take an apple cider soaked q-tip and rub along the cuticles. Repeat once or twice a day. Do not put your feet immediately back into shoes. You will need your feet to air out for a bit for them to fully dry before putting shoes or socks back on.
  2. Coconut oil is wonderful for so many things and this is another great use for it. When you wake up in the morning just massage into your feet making sure you get it in between toes and around nails. Let it dry into your foot as best ass possible before adding shoes or socks back on to your feet.
  3. Garlic, while a smelly fix, it does work. It is an antiseptic and anti fungal. You can simply apply crushed raw garlic between the toes and on the nails twice a day for one to two weeks. Now you have to be careful with garlic because too much direct contact with the skin can cause added irritation. The best option is to crush 2 cloves of garlic into a teaspoon of coconut oil. You will then add the blended garlic to your feet. Now you get the added benefits of 2 great products at ones.
  4. Cloves can be used in the form of an essential oil or salve. Apply several times a day or twice a day if using in combination with the garlic. Do not eat any clove essential oil or salve. You can also place the cloves in a food processor with a teaspoon of coconut oil and use it just as you would the garlic. Cloves were used in Chinese medicine since many years B.C.
  5. Tea tree oil is known for its many uses. This is another great use. Just apply a 25% oil solution or cream two to three times a day. The only down side is some dry skin has been reported with long term use. If that is an issue for you and your skin just mix it in with the coconut oil just like with the other 2 natural remedies.

Warning!!!!

While I am very PRO natural remedy you need to keep in mind that when all else fails see a doctor. It’s not recommended to use natural remedies for more than 3 weeks if there are no signs of improvement. Please see a doctor if symptoms do not improve within 3 weeks.

Onion Cheddar Hamburger Recipe – Dinner Under $10

Yummy Onion Cheddar Burgers

This is a favorite in my house. There is nothing like cheddar oozing out of a good hamburger when you bite into it. By putting the ingredients on the inside I have also found this eliminates a good bit of burger shrinkage. The patties actually balloon up as it cooks instead of shrinking.

A good bit of the ingredients are also things we always have at the house, and lets all be honest, there is nothing like a nice juicy homemade hamburger!

 

 

Cheap Under $10 Grocery List

  • 1 pound Ground Beef, $3.99
  • 1 Box Lipton Onion Recipe Secrets, $1.29
  • 1 Small Onion, .63
  • 1 loaf Bread, $1.29
  • 1 8oz Block Cheese, $2
  • Seasonings on hand
  • 1 tsp Salt
  • 1 tsp Garlic Powder
  • 1 tsp Hamburger Seasoning

 

 

Prepping and Cooking Your Onion Cheddar Hamburgers

  1. In a medium bowl add ground beef, seasonings, and one packet of Lipton Recipe Secrets Onion mix. Mix with hands until all seasonings are equally throughout the ground beef.
  2. Grab 1/3 – 1/4 a pound of ground beef and flatten on plate.
  3. Dice Onion
  4. Slice half the block of cheese.
  5. Add 2 slices of the cheese and 1 tablespoon of onion to the center of the flattened ground beef.
  6. Fold the ground beef edges over the middle tucking the onion in first. Continue folding and shaping until no cheese or onion is visible. Then shape the patty into a circle with your hands.
  7. Continue this until all of your ground beef has been used.
  8. Refrigerate your patties for 1 hour. If you don’t they will crumble when being cooked. A nice cold patty will stay shaped in the pan better as it cooks.
  9. One hour later heat a pan on the stove at medium heat.
  10. Add the burger patties to the pan carefully and cook 5 minutes each side. Do not flip more than needed.
  11. While your patties are cooking toast your bread. You can always add a bit of better and garlic powder to the outsides of the bread before toasting for even more flavor.
  12. Assemble you burgers and devour!!

 

 

 

What Makes This Recipe So Cheap?

First of all I like to make sure everyone knows that I am in rural, southern USA. Prices are awesome compared to other parts of the country, however with frugal shopping you can find similar prices just about anywhere outside of the major cities in the USA.

I like buying my ground beef in bulk when I find a sale for $2.99 a pound at the grocery store. This time though I wanted to try out some 90/10 ground beef being sold at a locally owned discount food business. They get meats locally and I like the idea of knowing where my meat is processed. This turned out to be a good buy.

I know some people prefer using actual hamburger buns. Personally I think they are a huge waste of money. They usually get soggy just as quick as regular sliced bread, and I always feel like I can’t use them for anything else. Regular sliced bread though is $1.29 for store brand, I can toast it up with some garlic powder on it, and I can use the rest of the loaf for anything I want.

For most of my recipes I assume whoever will be cooking them has the basic seasonings around the house. As someone who cooks often I have an entire seasoning cabinet over my stove. For the basic seasonings I will not include them in costs or in the shopping list because I assume you already have them, and if you don’t you should if you plan on cooking at home on a regular basis.

Similarly I don’t add in “add on ingredients” such as lettuce on these type recipes. I hope that if you eat at home you have these things for other uses. I only included bread on this list because of how much would be needed to make 4 burgers. Why? Most people have bread in their home, but we need 8 slices to make 4 burgers, so in case you’ve used half your loaf you will need to replace it.

If I will be using a lot of one ingredient then it goes on the list to buy.

Enjoy!

Southern Bacon Hoppin’ John’s Recipe

Every year I see post after post on social media talking about Hoppin’ John’s followed by the inevitable “What are Hoppin’ John’s” questions. Well Hoppin’ John’s in their true fashion are a southern, southeastern to be more exact, New Years traditional food. Personally, I like to eat it year round. It is filling, easy to make, and in true southern ways, it is greasy and bacony! The recipe changes depending on who you ask, however I was raised in Charleston, South Carolina, and while I know the long, home made version of this, my recipe here will be the one you do if you don’t want to spend the day cooking. So let me start with saying, if you want to spend the night soaking peas,  and an hour cooking rice be my guest. My New Year Day is better spent playing with the kids and shooting fireworks!

While this is a great New Year’s dish, it is a great meal year round.

 

 

 

 

Ingredients

  • 1 1 lb Pack of Bacon
  • 1 Can of Black Eye Peas Rinsed
  • 1 Red Belle Peppers
  • 1 Large Onion
  • 1 cup sliced Mushrooms
  • 2 Cloves of Garlic
  • 3 bags of cook in bag Rice

 

 

 

 

 

Cooking Instructions

  • Cook all of the bacon and place in the refrigerator to cool while cooking the rest of your ingredients
  • Save 2/3 of the bacon grease
  • Cook rice according to package instructions
  • While Rice is cooking dice onion, garlic, bell pepper, and mushrooms
  • Add leftover grease to large pan
  • Add onion, garlic, bell pepper, and mushrooms to grease and saute for or 5 minutes or until tender
  • Leave all grease in pan
  • Add rinsed black eye peas to the veggies during the last minute of sauteing
  • Add cooked rice to the pan with the sauteed veggies and peas
  • Once bacon has cooled crumble or cut into 1 inch piece
  • Mix in bacon
  • Stir fully while on low heat for 5 minutes
  • Serve

 

 

Again, you can always cook your peas and rice the long home cooked way, the outcome may be ever so slightly better. On regular days when I cook this I will often use regular rice. I have only home cooked the peas once, and the outcome was so minimally better that I decided not to go that route again. This is a dish we cook at least once every couple of months. Tasty, filling, not all that healthy, but we could do worse! I hope you enjoy. If you aren’t use to southern greasy food, this may not be your thing, and that is ok! If you like southern bacon flavored dishes though, give it a try!

 

I’m a Bad Mom and That is Okay!

Yes I said it! I’m a Bad Mom!

Please don’t say “oh no, you’re a great mom”. I’m not! It took me a while to come to this point, and for me to realize that I am OK with being a bad mother. My children have a roof, food, clothes, gadgets, toys, and are loved. I have come to the conclusion that I am OK with it just being that.

I created 3 amazing kids, but I am no longer going to pretend I am a great mom. I am someone who wanted children for selfish reasons. My children were all brought into this world so that I could create and be responsible for little people. My lack of family lead me to want to create my own family. Which I did. Now these beautiful little me children are my responsibility, which leads to why I am a bad mother!

10 Reasons I am a Horrible Mom and a Bad Parent

  1. I hate playing with kids! I always have. I would rather talk science or show them how to garden than have a tea party or watch their magic show (did I say I hate magic, well I do I HATE magic even though my oldest loves it). The thing is I have ZERO imagination or creativity! I mean none! I don’t plan on pretending to like any of these things either. I also do not intend to pretend to like playing with dolls or racing little cars around on the floor. I just won’t do it! They can join me outside in the garden or play some minecraft with me, but I will never do the pretend stuff.
  2. I use bad words A LOT!! I mean a lot. I am never going to believe that cussing around my children will some how turn them into horrible people. So yes, I cuss in front of my children. Do I run around dropping the F bomb every two minutes? No, but that has nothing to do with the kids, I just don’t use the F word often. I don’t cuss in front of other people’s children, but mine know that mommy says words that aren’t ok said anywhere other than home or with close friends.
  3. I have zero patience and I’m a control freak! These go together because I am demanding. I want things done the way I want them, when I want them. My expectations are really high! This is not something that goes well with the average view of parenting at all.
  4. I am not a peaceful parent! As much as I like to think I can be a peaceful parent and as much as I TRY to be a peaceful parent, my natural personality leads me to be loud, demanding, and hold my little children to grown up expectations. I keep wanting to be the mom who never raises her voice, that remembers children will be children, and to always treat my kids the way I want to be treated. It doesn’t always work that way for me. I’m a loud person. This goes with the demanding part of me. It’s kind of hard to hold my children to my high expectations AND be a peaceful parent. Sometimes I yell, and (gasp) argue with my tween!
  5. My kids eat fast food sometimes. Once a week we eat food that is horrible for us. Yes I do feed my kids that pink slime (McDonalds) sometimes even though I know it will likely cause cancer for some people.
  6. I don’t home school. This is a big trend right now. I’m happy for those who can make it work, but there is no way in hell I will ever have the want or ability to home school. I really give credit to those who can. Such an amazing ability to keep their kids out of crappy public schools, but my schedule, life, and body will never allow me to home school.
  7. Sometimes breakfast is candy! Yup, I simply give in and say yes to candy for breakfast sometimes! No I do not argue the benefits of a healthy breakfast every single time. I just say “here, have it”
  8. Bed time is Bed time! I mean it. Unless you’re sick, dying, the house is on fire, you have to pee, or there is a burglar in your room I will not come back in and tuck you in 20 times and you will not get up and down. You don’t have to go to sleep, but my kids aren’t going to be bothering me after their bed time. That’s my me time and my couples time with my husband! Sorry, but I have to have uninterrupted time without children each day to stay sane!
  9. I don’t force my children to shower every day. Would I like it if my two stinky boys washed daily? Of course, but I have explained to them the possible consequences of not washing, if they want to deal with it then that’s on them! My toddler gets a bath when she asks unless of course I can no longer tell what color her skin is because she’s covered it in mud.
  10. My kids play a ton of video games and love TV. Everyone in my house enjoys gaming and TV, and (gasp) sometimes a lot! TV’s stay on most of the time in our home and there are 4 tablets usually going at the same time with a possibility that the XBOX might be on too! We are gamers and netflix bingers!

Why Am I OK With Being A Bad Mom?

Until recently I wanted to keep pushing towards being a better parent, to be the parent everyone pretends they are. Then I woke up this morning and said screw it! My kids are smart, healthy, and provided for! I have an 11 year old who is smart beyond my understanding. He’s a critical thinker of all things. He questions everything, and that is amazing! I have a 9 year old who can throw a football further than many grown men. No matter the sport he can conquer it like a natural. He puts me to shame every time he competes against me and I think that is pretty freaking cool! My baby is 4. She is so bright and creative that sometime I forget she is only 4. She’s been drawing little people since she was 1. She draws better than I do. On top of that she has conversations like an adult would. She is the little more amazing version of me!!

So why should I feel bad about being a crappy mom? My kids are cool!! So be NORMAL people! You can read a million studies about what is best for your children, but when it comes down to it if they are happy and healthy, maybe, just maybe, you aren’t that bad of a parent!

To All of You Perfect Parents

No matter how perfect you think your parenting is, reality is we all screw our kids up a little! We just do. You are no different than any of us “bad parents”, your kids might just be screwed up in a different way!

So I will take being a crappy mom, because trying or pretending to be a great mom is exhausting! If my kids will end up messed up either way, I might as well keep myself in the process and not fake it till I make it! After all, we are talking about little people with brains of their owns. As long as they are provided for and not abused they will make it!

I love my kids, they love me! That is all that really matters!

 

Fast and Easy Chili With Beans

Chili with beans recipe

Ingredients For Quick and Easy Budget Chili:

 

1 15.5 oz can kidney beans

1 15.5 oz can chili beans

1 Teaspoon Spike Onion Seasoning

1 Big 28 oz can of whole or diced tomatoes (2 cans of rotel can be substituted)

1 Large bell pepper any color

1 drained can sweet corn (or one cob cut)

1 large onion minced

3 cloves of garlic minced

1 pre-mixed packet of chili powder + 1 tsp chili powder

1 pound ground beef

  

 

 Prep Time:

15 Minutes

Cook Time: 

15-20 Minutes

Serves:

4-6 People

 

Cooking Instructions:

Mince Onion and Garlic

Dice Bell Pepper Make sure you seed the pepper. Throw away or store seeds, but do not add the seeds to the recipe.

Add ground beef to a 5 quart pot and brown for 2 minutes.The ground beef should have produced some grease for the pan by now, so add onion, garlic, and bell pepper. Finish browning beef with the onion, garlic, and pepper.

Add all canned items with juices except the corn. Make sure you drain all juices from the canned corn.

Slowly stir in the seasoning packet, Spike Onion Seasoning, and chili powder.

Simmer for 10-15 minutes stirring every couple of minutes.

Serve with crackers, bread rolls, baked potatoes, cornbread, fritos, cheese, or yogurt. 

 

This is a very basic chili recipe for nights when cooking from scratch or making a big meal simply isn’t an option. 

 

As a stay at home mom I usually have time to make scratch meals, but since the kids have gotten older and we have more errands to run around to this has become a great quick fix. It’s also super cheap so when I am feeding 2 boys who eat like grown men it helps stretch the budget a bit more. 

easy chili recipe

 

 

 

Reliable iPhone Portable Charging Bank

If you are looking for a good portable charging bank for your iPhone or iPod this iHome Omni Powerbank is a great buy. When I got it I charged it out of the box for 8 hours before using it.

This plugs into the wall. It charges in the outlet easily. Then when you are ready to use it the outlet plug actually folds back into it so that you don’t have an ugly plug sticking out. The cord that attaches to your iphone is built in. So no worrying about losing it or having to look for another one. The cord actually folds into the charging bank when you are not using it. This is great for me because I probably have 10 of these cords but I always manage to lose them.

After an 8 hour charge it charged my phone in about an hour from 11 percent to 100 percent. Not bad at all. I really like using this when waiting for my kids to get out of school. Being in the car rider line for an hour is boring. So I usually play my phone the whole time. Quite often I forget to charge it to 100% before going to pick them up. So I just have it hooked up while waiting in the line.

On top of all that, this is small enough to fit in your back pocket. So if your kids or you like to play Pokemon Go or just spend a lot of time on your phone you can easily have this power bank on you so that you can charge anywhere!If you want to get your own iHome Omni powerbank you can get it here.

Best Affordable Food Chopper

We have a small homestead, with a huge garden. I cook every night using veggies from our garden. Slicing, dicing, shredding, are all things that take up more time than it should at dinner time, but we like to use our garden veggies. I was a little reluctant about trying out the Brieftons Food Chopper, but I have to say I was pleasantly surprised by it’s abilities.

I have to say that this is one of the best kitchen items I have ever owned!! Last night we diced onions, bell peppers, Jalapenos, lettuce, and tomatoes. We were having burritos so I wanted it finely chopped. It was so easy to use, my 5 year old daughter did all of the chopping and even shredded the cheese! Even better was that this thing has a draw sting pull like a lawnmower. So my 5 year old actually loved getting to help with it!

What You Need to Know :

-You can chop just about everything in it!

-Chop, Shred, slice, you name it!

-The divider in the 2 side container does not leak through to the opposite side.

-Easy pull string does the chopping. Easy enough to pull even with arthritis.

-Cleans easy with minimal effort.

-Interchangeable top is easy to remove.

What You Get For Your Money :

– A twin bowl with divider

– Lid with a pulling cord

– 2 chopping rotators

– 2 mixer attachments

– Julienne insert, slicer insert, shredder insert and grater insert

– Safety food holder

This thing is great. I have never had a chopper that I actually felt like helped more than it slowed me down. This is the first time I have ever had a chopper that I like. Most of them make you almost chop the item completely before you can ever even put something in it. So I love this Brieftons Food Chopper! If you want to get one, you can find your own here.

Homemade Habanero Hot Sauce Recipe




Cook Time

Prep time: 15 min
Cook time: 30 min
Ready in: 45 min
Yields: Approx. 50 oz

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Ingredients

  • 1 pound Habanero
  • 1/2 cup Vinegar
  • 1/2 cup Tomato Sauce
  • 1/2 cup BBQ Sauce, Your Choice of Flavor
  • 1 Medium Onion, I prefer Yellow or Vidalia
  • 6 Cloves Garlic
  • 6-8 Cherry Tomatoes
  • 12 Cups Water, Only 1/2 cup or less will actually go in the sauce
  • 1 Teaspoon Olive OilI prefer a sweet and spicy BBQ sauce to add in.
 

Put Your Gloves on or You Will Be Sorry!!!!!

  • If you ignored the above notice I will say it again, PUT YOUR GLOVES ON even if you are a tough hot shot! Or don’t, then tell us how that goes in a couple of hours when you touch your eye or worse if you’re a guy, when you go to the bathroom!
  • Remove all stems from your habaneros.
  • Add them to 12 cups of water in a large pot whole. No need to seed you want this to be hot. You also do not need to chop them since you will be throwing them in the blender after you are done boiling them anyway!
  • Boil them for 30 minutes, stirring often. Make sure your area is ventilated and if you are sensitive you might even want to wear some protective glasses.
  • While your hananeros are boiling chop your onion into blending size pieces. For my blender I only need to quarter them.
  • After your habaneros have boiled drain the water. You will notice the habaneros have actually retained a small amount of the water (up to a cup) inside of them. This is OK.
  • Add all ingredients to the blender and pulse until your desired consistency.
  • Add to jars and refrigerate. Enjoy your homemade Habanero hot sauce!
In the blender. Look at all those lovely spicy seeds!
In the blender. Look at all those lovely spicy seeds!

Easy Habanero Hot Sauce Recipe!

While this Habanero hot sauce recipe does have a several ingredients, it is still super easy to make. I made mine while doing other chores in the kitchen this morning. Please do not ignore my warnings about gloves and ventilation. While it could lead to just funny mistakes, well funny for those around you, it could also lead to a trip to the emergency room. No matter your experience level in dealing with hot peppers you should still be cautious.

This hot sauce will last for months in your fridge. Personally mine never lasts long, but that is because I eat it all before we have long enough to test how long it would stay good in the fridge!

What Can You Add Your Habanero Hot Sauce To?

There are many great things you can do with your new hot sauce. It will give instant heat to just about anything you cook.

  • Add it too broth in soups
  • Add a teaspoon or a few teaspoons to your favorite BBQ sauce
  • Use it in Chili base
  • Add to marinades for steak or chicken
  • Mix some into your ground beef while making burger patties.
  • Add to spaghetti sauce for an extra bite
  • Drip onto eggs
  • Add a tablespoon to your grits while they are cooking.
  • Mix into macaroni and cheeseYour really just use it as you would any other hot sauce except you will be using it in more moderation, unless of course you are like me and like everything you eat to be super spicy!

Hot Sauce Just Isn’t Hot Anymore, but This One Is!

When my husband tried this habanero hot sauce he took too large of a bite. He then proceeded to start sweating, taking his shirt off, and running his whole face under water. So we nicknamed this one “Get Naked Habanero Hot Sauce”

I use my husband as the scale for heat, since to me a habanero isn’t hot, and he has informed me that I am crazy because it sets his mouth on fire! So since he has all of his “hot” taste buds still I use him as my scale most of the time to decide how hot something actually is. He likes heat, but much past a Jalapeno and he is running for the milk! Habanero hot sauce really gets him!

Somewhere along the way of me being a kid chomping down Tijuana Mama Hot sausages from the gas station and eating Jalapenos right off the bush to being an adult who goes through about 8 bottles of Tabasco a month I lost my “hot” taste buds. Nothing is hot anymore! So I started making my own hot sauces. Most of my recipes for hot sauce fill up two Ragu 26 oz jars. I have not started canning this yet, mostly because I go through it so quickly buying large amounts of peppers (far more than I am growing yet) to make canning worth it for me. These 2 jars typically last me a week or two. So I am making it often.